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if it were possible to turn back time or to detach your bad emotions from yourself i would be the first to do so

holidays are here, and while everyone celebrates and gathers among family and friends with warm happy feelings and thoughts floating around, I find it difficult to partake. its like smiling at a funeral, to pretend would only be to please those around you while it eats away at you from the inside. every reminder every face every memory just adding to it, you would rather suffer the rest of your life than let yourself forget for a second. and nothing changes for the better like you so wishfully tried to convince yourself it would.